Hi, all thoes of you who actually take the time to hear my rare updates.
First of all,
how Is everyone?
Now getting on with my anxtie note for which will make up for the all the times I havent written recently.

If you will excuse me for letting off some serious steam, Ill tell you if you dare or even care to go on, will tell you how im doing nowdayz.

HAS ANYONE SEEN THE NEWS LATELY??

WHO DO THEY THINK THEY ARE (US SENATORS)TO DENY PROVEN SCIENCE THAT BEING GAY IS IN THE GENES? INSTEAD THEY SAY THAT YOU CANT BE BORN GAY, ITS TAUGHT TO YOU. THEY ARE TARGETING SPECIFICLY PRE-ADULESANT BOYS SAYING THAT IF YOU WATCH OR LOOK AT PORN YOU WILL TURN GAY. THEY ADMITTED TO DOING THIS SO THAT GUYS (AND SOME OF US GIRLS NOT TO BE LEFT OUT) WILL BE FRIGHTENED THAT IT WILL TURN US GAY RESULTING IN NOT BUYING PLAYBOY MAGAZINES.

WHO STARTED THE BELIEF THAT GAY PEOPLE WERE HORRIBLE BECAUSE OF WHAT THEY DO? I BELIEVE ITS CALLED POLITICAL RELIGION.
WHO ARE THEY TO SAY THAT MASTERBATION,SEX WITHOUT BIRTH CONTROL AND SEX ITSELF TO BE SIN AND WRONG? (HERE COMES MY HARDCORE FEMINIST BELIEF: A WOMAN SHOULD BE PROUD OF HER BODY AND ITS ABILITIES. IT IS HER BODY SHE IS THE ONLY ONE TO SAY WHAT HER BODY WILL DO. NOT WHAT THE CHIRCH SAYS TO DO (BECAUSE OTHERWISE SHE WILL GO TO HELL)OR WHAT THE GOVERNMENT SAYS SHE SHOULD DO WITH HER BODY. IT IS NOT THEIR PROPERTY.
WHO ARE THEY TO QUESTION THE VERY DRIVE IN OUR DNA THAT MAKES MAN BE ON THIS EARTH? ISN'T THAT ONE OF MAN'S PURPOSES TO PROCREATE?
HOW CAN SOMETHING SO BEAUTIFUL BE SO BAD? HOW CAN GAYS BE HORRIBLE PEOPLE? I DONT KNOW OF A TIME WHEN LOVE WASNT LOVE.
LOVE IS LOVE.
IT DOESNT MATTER WHETHER THEY ARE GAY, LESBIAN, BOTH, OR ANYWHERE IN BETWEEN! IT IS THE INTENTION OF GIVING SOMEONE WE CARE ABOUT THE GIFT OF JOY.
SO WHAT IS THE POINT OF LIVING IF YOU CANT HAVE A MOMENT OF JOY AND HAVE TO BE GUILTY AND SORRY THAT YOU ENJOYED IT? THE VERY POINT IN WHICH PEOPLE ARE UNITED IN ONE, WHERE THEY CAN TOUCH AND SEE THE DIVINE BECAUSE ITS SIN? NO!
WHAT HAPPENED TO THE AGES OF OLD SPIRITUALITY WHERE THE PEOPLE WERE MORE OF THE EARTH AND ITS PATTERNS WHERE PEOPLE WERNT HATEFUL, AND HAD MORE FEWMINIST VIEWS WHERE GAYS, LESBIANS AND BISEXUALS WERE HOLY PEOPLE BECAUSE THEY COULD UNDERSTAND WAYS THE UN-GAY PEOPLE COULDNT?

Have they ever seen gays? they are called gay because they are HAPPY with who they are and not because they are incomplete beings or have something mentally wrong. the people who said that happyness is wrong is mentally in the wrong place. That was not what god intended.

I am agnostic because I see the patterns made through time of the rises and falls. I am afraid of the religious peoples who litterally said in the documentery i saw last night that they wouldnt mind if there were a nuclear war that would bring about the end of the world as we knew of it because it would bring them to jesus christ a man who is raised from the dead centries ago will come and save them. let me repeat that so you know you have it strait. IF rallied, they would not mind if there were a nuclear war (some would be crazy enough to start it)so they could see the comming of Jesus. If they did manage to create the end of the world, how would they have another comming of jesus in the first place if all were dead, and he had no living deciples or followers to come to and help?

And excuse me but a talking snake? and someone please explain to me how god could create man without conception if its a sin, and have man created without a woman's womb to create him in if he has to create woman from his rib to concieve him in the first place? its not posible to have a virgin give birth if she has not had sex meaning impregnated by some seed.

How can they say that gays are horrible people? would they behave with the same hate and misunderstanding if it were a family member?
why should one kind of human being be lower than another because they can show love in a different way than you and have to "come out of the closet" if they are comfortable and should be rightly proud of who they are? it seems they are more shure of themselves than those who dislike them.

I feel i have a right to say this because one of my family members who was gay died of AIDS.
Have they ever seen what briliant song writer/playwrite Cole Porter was..De Lovely..a story of his life as an openly gay man who married a woman madly in love with him to make her happy (and sort of rid of her in a way) she promices herself not to interfere with his lovelife even tho she does as she becomes jelouse of the men he is with.

Or the movie Harvy Milk?

Anyway, thank you for reading all the way down through that.
I know you must be sighing with releaf that its the end finally.

Now to the part on how im doing...:

Only a few hand full of you may know that I have moved here to Fort Collins to go to school in January that is if I can find a job. Its miserable and Im sooo desperate! I have litterally now as of today applied to 49 different places hoping for an interview! Its miserable.
Laugh, love, live.
May you be happy.
Best of wishes to you, and i hope that your intentions are carried through.
~ Alleh
P.S. To All!

Please do comment on what you think on these subjects because im very interested in what you have to say. ^^ :hugtight: